And I Still Remember.

3:30 AM

I still remember about you. You're the least thing I want to forget.
It's been a hectic week till I read your texts. A feeling like being sucked away suddenly gets into my guts. Perhaps it wasn't my soul.
I wasn't made of glass. But those scratches you've made of me is still clearly seen on the wall of my glass heart. Do you know who can fix these scratches? Mend this or make me a new one.
Silly 16 years old of me always thought that leaving you behind would be like a nightmare brought to life. It wasn't clear what I have to do, only to make you stay. Like walking down an empty tunnel without a hint of light, not knowing where it will end. Eternal darkness, complete silence and eery coldness surrounding my lonely body and soul.
A flashback of memories we had looping inside my head. Confusing my heart to tell myself not to think with my consciences.
That night is full of silences and feels like far-off to end. How I wish we had more conversations just like how my inner soul want to scream at you.
You're still the same stranger I used to know four years ago. But today as a stranger with some achievements. I don't know I should be proud or not, because I still remember about you, and how bad you made me feel back in years before.
I realized that there are more to the world than to find love. There are more to love than to find one. And ultimately, there are more to the one than them being your soulmate.
The chains confining my heart have been broken, but not my heart itself.
For my own sanity, when we were together, I thought myself as a redundant poem. The kind that people would stop reading even before the first comma. However, I had no commas, as I always waiting for you to end all the unpleasant ache.
I still remember your chuckles, laughs and every little thing about you. Perhaps I didn't miss them at all.
And I still remember how heartless you were that day, crumpling those hopes of mine and walking away. 
I still remember. 
And I will not forget.
03:25AM 10/23/2016

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10 Comments

  1. OMG how can I not love this writing!? Anyway, keep doing more (:

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  2. Awwwww, this is so heartbreaking to read! T___T

    I realized that there are more to the world than to find love. There are more to love than to find one. And ultimately, there are more to the one than them being your soulmate. <-- love this!

    If this is really your deep thoughts, I would recommend you to move on ;) If he/she remains as stranger after 4 years, looks like the relationship is not going well, I think. Save your heart for someone more worthy

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    1. Thank you, I do appreciate your thought! Let's save the heart for the best.

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  3. be strong :)
    such a precious writing

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  4. Pandai Hang tulis dalam enggeris. Boleh lah pasni buat blog enggeris senang orang luar nak baca :D

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    1. hahaha enggeris terabur jaa. tulis ja mana mampu.

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